Let It Go

Today’s Post Written By: Lisa HutsonRunning, I felt the pain of dead weight pulling on my back and upper abdomen. With each step, the weight got heavier and heavier and the pain more intense. The thought of my dead weight being removed brought excitement and hope, but it also seemed too good to be true. After all, there was a part of me that had not been able to let go of it, a part of me that felt as though I deserved the suffering that came with the dead weight.You see, I did this to myself. I decided years ago that taking care of me was not a priority. The pain and disappointment of life was too much for me to bear on my own, I turned to food to numb my pain, to comfort me, to fill those empty places of my soul.  As the scale climbed year after year, my soul became emptier and emptier.I eventually came to a place where I realized that I could not do life on my own, nor was I ever created to. I cried out to God and He came to fill those empty places. I had to cry out to God almost constantly to resist the temptation of food. If I continued to try and fill my emptiness with food, there would be no room for God. Food would always leave me yearning for my next fix. When God filled my emptiness, He filled me to all fullness. As I learned to crave God, not food, I went on an amazing spiritual journey that led to great physical benefits.With 100 pounds lost, God gave me freedom in an area I never dreamed possible. But with the weight loss came about 15 pounds of skin on my stomach that was nothing but dead weight. There was nothing that I could do about it. No amount of exercise or healthy eating could take away the dead weight of that skin. As the doctor recommended a skin removal surgery, I had a hard time finding peace with it. I asked for prayer from some of my closest friends. The dead weight was causing me a significant amount of pain, but for some reason I could not let go of it.Then one day, a dear friend of mine looked me in the eye and said, You need to let go.”I gave her a confused look and went on to ask her what she was talking about.  She said