9/7: I’m struggling with the flesh. There are still addictions in my life that are hindering me from a close relationship with God. I miss it so much. I cry thinking of the closeness and joy I once had with Him. He has been instructing me to lay aside these hindrances and walk in full obedience. What is holding me back? I have much self-examination and repentance to do.

9/8: I spent much time in prayer. I sensed His presence as I have longed for. I could have just stayed there forever.

9/10: Wow, our women’s class at church is growing. It’s going to be SRO before long. It’s so refreshing and exciting to see new people from all age groups coming to church.

My friend told me to stop by his house to get fresh-picked Concord grapes. He knows so much about cooking and farming. We talked for an hour. I told him I only wanted about a pound and he sent me home with an overflowing aluminum turkey pan. I guess I’ll have to learn to make grape jelly.

9/12: Went to see David Jeremiah at U.S. Bank Arena. Out of all the thousands of people, we walked through the doors at about the same time as 2 other families from church. It’s a small world. It was enjoyable, and you just can’t beat the beautiful Cincinnati cityscape at night. It’s absolutely dazzling. I’d like to just pitch a blanket by the river and gaze at it all night.

9/13: Tomorrow is mom’s birthday, so dad and I cleaned the house and did some shopping. I couldn’t find anything for her, but dad did. I’ll make another attempt tomorrow.

My eating and exercise thoughts are improving little by little. It’s hard to believe I’m actually looking forward to taking mom out to eat for her birthday! I praise God every day for picking up a wounded, fallen, dying soldier. Only He has the power to heal.

There is a verse that has kept me in daily Bible study and prayer, and it is this, “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” John 8:31-32.