Rhonda's Recovery Journey

“The footprints we leave behind show clearly where we have been, but they do not dictate where we can now go.” ~Ralph Martson

Week 67

9/22: Went to see Patty at the assisted living facility. When I peeked in the room, she immediately recognized my voice and almost jumped out of her chair with excitement. She was so happy to see me. We talked for a while and I read a devotion to her. She had some questions, and I was able to answer one in depth because it was about exactly what I studied and did a devotion on last night. God’s timing is precise! I sat and talked with another woman on the way out. I asked her if she had Native American blood running through her veins. That started an interesting conversation. I love getting a glimpse into the lives of others. It’s like taking a tour to a foreign country and learning its history.

9/23: Went for a hike in the woods. I took some pictures for a devotion I’m going to write, but they didn’t turn out too good. It was so peaceful. I hopped along the rocks in the creek, observed some fossils and watched some little critters in the creek and trees.

9/24: Mom and I sang at church. I blanked out on one of the verses and put in completely different words that made sense and rhymed. God is very expedient and has a way of rescuing me in sticky situations like these. After we were finished, I was laughing in my heart at how this all worked out so perfectly. God is my strength when I am weak and my rescuer when I am forgetful!

I got home first, and when mom came through the door, she said with a big smile on her face, “How in the world did you think up words that fast?” She said when I started spurting words that weren’t part of the song she thought I was having an insulin reaction (low blood sugar). Nope, my sugar was fine. Since we were the only two aware of this little mishap, we enjoyed a good laugh together. So many people told us how much this song touched them. It was truly the Holy Spirit working in amazing ways!

I woke up late from an afternoon nap and didn’t have time to pack a lunch before choir and church. We didn’t get home until 7:30, and I didn’t want a full dinner so I had cottage cheese, fruit, and some crackers. I ate a snack at about 10:00 and went to bed.

9/25: Got teeth cleaned and the dentist said everything looked good. Thankful for that good news.

I called a friend from church to see if she wanted to get together today, so she invited me to her apartment and we sat and talked for about two hours. We had a nice talk about our lives, struggles, and above all, God.

My sugar has been running high all day, and I’m beginning to feel very sick and tired. I HATE high glucose!

9/26: It was a busy day at work. I’m glad because it keeps me from getting bored. Had a great day at both assisted living programs. The hummingbird program was a great success. God gets all the credit and glory. I can do nothing without his power and equipping.

It seems as if the Holy Spirit is silent. I’m not getting the fulfillment I’m so accustomed to getting in study. I know what it is. I’m still holding on to sinful things. Even when I don’t act in these sins it’s still sinning because I’m just waiting until the time comes to practice these evils. I feel so utterly shameful. I stand guilty. I repent of my sinful disobedience.

9/27: I’m sensing the sweetness of the Holy Spirit. I’ve being focusing extra hard on speaking scripture and giving praise and adoration to God by saying names attributed to Him like Almighty God, Alpha and Omega, the Holy One, the Great I Am, etc.

I have a release in the sinful thoughts I’ve had about succumbing to disordered eating behavior. I still don’t feel fully satisfied in bible study. There just seems to be a silence although I know this isn’t the case. God is ever so near.

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