Rhonda's Recovery Journey

“The footprints we leave behind show clearly where we have been, but they do not dictate where we can now go.” ~Ralph Martson

Week 62

8/17: My sugar was high all night and day. It was so high this morning that I thought I was going to vomit. I know it’s this insulin. I need that other insulin more than ever. All I can do is wait.

Did some garden work, went to pick out a birthday present for my niece, ate lunch, and laid down. The high blood sugar drained every ounce of my energy. Most people just don’t understand that high or low blood sugar for a diabetic can make or break a day.

8/18: I was very relieved and excited to get the Humalog insulin I’ve been waiting for. This should get me back to normal.

I haven’t mentioned the abnormal size of my stomach, but it’s still there. If my weight gain is going anywhere other than my stomach, I can’t see it. The dietician asked if I have gastroparesis. When I said, “I don’t know,” she told me I might want to look into it.

I spent most of the evening rewriting a devotion.

8/19: Well, my body readily accepted the new insulin and I woke up with low sugar this morning. I made some number adjustments to my insulin pump after breakfast. A couple new basal rates should help.

Went to Ava’s 3rd birthday party. I was hoping they’d grill out instead of ordering pizza. They decided on pizza. It is less work, so I don’t blame them. I ate the thin crust pizza with salad and fruit. My brother and his girlfriend didn’t act themselves. Something isn’t right.

Since the total solar eclipse is coming up, I decided to study about the total solar eclipse described in Revelation.

8/20: Two new families joined our church. It’s so refreshing to see God add younger families to membership! One of the women even came to choir practice tonight. We observed the Lord’s Supper. This is such a sweet time to me. I often wonder what it would have been like to be one of the disciples present in the upper room with Christ.

8/21: Did yard work most of the day.

Dad was trying to watch the eclipse with 3 pairs of glasses. I suggested using his welder’s helmet. I figured if it can protect the eyes from the harsh welding light sparks, then it would work for the eclipse. We got the perfect view through the helmet. It is so awesome to see the cosmos God created!

8/22: I’ve had an emotional day. There’s no rhyme or reason as to why I’ve been teary. I started to snap out of it at about 2pm.

It seemed like an extra long day at work. Had a great time at the nursing homes.

8/23: I’ve been eating more today. My appetite has been a little bigger than usual. I’ve been exercising too much. I allow this addictive act to steal God’s time and His plan for my life. All of my devotions today have been on the consequences of disobedience. It wrenches my heart with guilt, yet I still in sin. It’s time to ask for accountability again. I hate the cycle of addiction!

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