Rhonda's Recovery Journey

“The footprints we leave behind show clearly where we have been, but they do not dictate where we can now go.” ~Ralph Martson

Week 44

4/13: God has given me such a sense of freedom and joy in eating higher fat/protein foods. This peace could only come from Him. He has even given me a feeling of excitement about this new food thing.

Had a couple of wonderful encounters with neighbors this morning. One got the card I sent and the other appreciated the information I was able to supply about medical issues. Feels good to allow God to touch others through me. I got to spend quite a bit of time at work in a one-on-one in the Genealogy Dept. Wow, the depth of information in this place is unbelievable! I’m so pleased with my working environment and the way the staff helps and supports one another.

Ate my first ever pack of nuts on the way home. They were delicious and satisfying. I also had the whole milk and 4% cottage cheese throughout the day. No problem! God is so good. No, He’s not just good, He’s also marvelous, wonderful, and amazing!

4/14: Had a delightful quiet time in the field. Went into the woods to see if the bluebells were up yet. They are! So gorgeous and serene. I wish their life span was much longer.

Got to go visit my niece and watch her hunt Easter eggs. I spent some time with her playing with bumble bees and blowing the fuzz off dandelions. She’s hilarious.

As soon as I got home I began getting everything ready to bake for my carrot cake tomorrow. This is the first time I’ve ever made carrot cake, not to mention from scratch. Even homemade icing. Test kitchen.

Eating is great again. I’m not a bit nervous about the family meal tomorrow.

4/15: After a short walk, I met mom and we got some things for the meal tonight. I stuck a couple more ingredients into my carrot cake batter and then into the oven. The cake was, in today’s chef talk, decadent!

Dinner went well and I ate great northern beans for the 1st time. I hid the Easter eggs while the family kept Ava busy inside. We then watched and laughed as she hunted. This girl is too smart for her own good. I’m sure her parents are just thrilled about all the chocolate she received over the course of 2 days.

I’ve been reminding myself throughout the day of the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ. I’m so very thankful and undeserving. Jesus Christ paid the ultimate price.

4/16: After breakfast, I went to church to serve in the kitchen for the continental breakfast. I didn’t even know bakeries had donut boxes as large as these were. It is so wonderful serving in the place God has called me.

The Easter service was wonderful! I switched up my afternoon snack a bit and chose to eat an apple and 2 big scoops of peanut butter. Oh, so good. Guilt free and happy!

4/17: It’s grass mowing season again. Hooray! Mowing is a burden for some, but thankfully I’m not one of them because there’s a lot of yard to take care of. The peanut butter tasted so good yesterday that I wanted to face a past fear food again. I ate it on top of a sugar-free ice cream sandwich.

The Living in Truth leadership meeting went smoothly. This group of women is so dedicated in every way! Such an inspiration and joy seeing everyone putting forth so much time and effort for this May Fashion Event!

4/18: Finally got a call back from the dietician. She can’t get me in until next Thursday. For some reason, I’m getting a lot of patience tests.

I got to go to another assisted living facility for work today. Christine has been so helpful in preparing me to work on my own. She said she is more than willing to plan the programs for May if I don’t feel at ease yet. As of right now, I’m ready to run with it.

Went to pick up Rx’s and pharmacy tech said my insurance isn’t covering. Here we go again. I called and found out I’ve been switched to another plan and that it should all be taken care of and ready for pick-up by Friday.

My blood sugar has been so out of control with all of the eating changes, stress, and different eating times due to work schedule. I’m just pooped. I’m not about to give up!!! I know God is working in every area of my life and my faith is greater now than it has ever been.

I ate Salisbury steak for the 1st time in about 25 years. Yummy. Eating nuts and jerky throughout the day is becoming the norm. I’m no longer afraid! I will not fear because God is for me and working all things together to bring me to full health and fullness. What reverence and gratitude I have for Who He is. As God said to Moses in Exodus 3:14a; “I AM WHO I AM.”

4/19: I’m depressed. Christine gave me an intro to senior programming. She is so patient. At the end of the day, I realized my brain is not functioning properly. The trivia questions for the seniors were to be anything pertaining to May. I put some questions in that had nothing to do with May. I’ve also noticed that I’m not comprehending much of what I’m told and can’t clearly put my thoughts together. It’s scary.

I called Raelynn back after work and she expressed her concern about my health. It’s very obvious my weight is down, especially to me. I try to be completely honest with her because I know she only wants the best for me. Not only is the high glucose a big contributor to the weight loss, but exercise is too. She’s doing what only a true friend would do; holding me accountable. I know I desperately need this and I know it hurts to give up my areas of control. I have been down all evening about my health and all of the obstacles ahead. Dad insisted on going to the store to get Magnesium. I think I might be lacking it. I didn’t exercise at all today, and I am more tired tonight than I have been in a long time.

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