What you are about to read is one woman’s recovery journey up close, personal, and in real time. Rhonda Stinson, my longtime friend and sister in Christ, has been battling an eating disorder for a very long time. She is ready to be free! Over the coming weeks and months, Rhonda has agreed to share her journey with us – the good, the bad, and the ugly. We pray that you are encouraged and empowered through her story.
The footprints we leave behind show clearly where we have been, but they do not dictate where we can now go. ~Ralph Martson
By Rhonda Stinson
June 16: Facing up to the over-exercising today and when I opened my Bible to 1 Timothy 4:8, it was for me. “For bodily exercise profits a little, but godliness is profitable for all things, having promise of the life that now is and of that which is to come.” I went to my brother’s house after lunch instead of exercising. I cried all the way there because the urge to exercise was so strong. Did some weeding and hedge trimming for him and it made me feel so good to be helping someone else. Sobbing, I just kept saying “please God give me strength.” At the end of the day, all I have to say is, I’m not a happy camper, but I know God is well-pleased and wrapping His arms around me for taking this hard step.
June 17: Looked forward to rewarding myself this morning with the hard crossword in the Friday paper. Did crossword for about 3-5 minutes and willingly put it away. This was truly a God intervention! Added half of a sweet potato to dinner. It was delicious.
June 19: “If we do not trust God’s promises and, therefore, do not step out in faith and surrender, we will ultimately find ourselves in bondage to the very things we refuse to surrender.” (Brokenness, Surrender, Holiness, p.201) Ate oatmeal for breakfast for the first time in years. No guilt. The fear of food is decreasing for sure.
June 20: I really, really want to exercise more tonight! Feeling antsy and unsettled as I sit here and type. Relieve it God!